11:15pm, Sun May 5 2013
Hello phone notes, yes, I totally got you. Too many thoughts are again booming in my head. I'm tired doing nothing because it gives me time to think. I just hope it will all fit here. Wait, no I won't say that much. Haha I'm just oozing out my negativity and just focus on the wonders of the world and, of course, BLESSINGS. Yay, love you God.
10:59pm, Tue May 7 2013
ang lungkot lang talaga ng araw na to :( na dapat special day ko. Ang bigat talaga God/ From family, mr. Techy, ate Kath, to Cantors. Gusto ko na magburst, ang sakit sa puso. Why things have to be like this? Bakit kasi ako nagkaron gantong utak? I'm thinking too much and worst is it's more on negative things. :( God, I lift everything up to You. Fill this emptiness of mine, turn confusion into assurance. May I see things the way You see them. Heal us not just physically but emotionally and spiritually.
10:10am, Sat May 18, 2013
Bakit feeling ko lately ang moody ko :/ tapos parang madalas nagiging gloomy ako. Hay ewan basta pag-ako talaga nag-isip waley na Hmm gusto kong sumama sa night swimming ng Cantors, namimiss ko na talaga silang makabonding. Nga lang malabo rin talagang payagan. Sana gumaling na si baby. Ang bigat din pala sa feeling pagnireject mo yung talk kahit na biglaan. Pero kasi iba eh, baka di ako maging effective kunsakaling tinanggap ko. Baka magfocus lang ako sa sarili ko imbes na kay God. Pero wala lang di ko man lang na proclaim ung greatness Niya sa 'kin. Anyways, I'm praying for the success of B3 camp. May times na feeling ko masmagandang maging tahimik na lang, ewan lang. Parati ka kasing okay sa paningin nila pero deep within something's bothering you. You wish at least one will ask if you are okay. Maybe I just want some comfort. Wala lang drama lang. Kunsabagay, I wanted to be the source of happiness. ^_^ okay na un, basta masaya sila. That simple thing makes me happy and comfortable. In everything that I do, I should be reminded that it is always between me and my God.
09:33pm, Mon May 20 2013
"Let's go back to the basic. It would be a bit hard but it will not take long". She had finally decided, it was a moment of enlightenment she thought. It has been months since the day that she gave in and trusted her heart. There was nothing wrong with it, they both know the situation and are happy being together. Their tandem is really good for they respect each others differences and cling to each others goodness. It was night when they talked about their situation. She explained her side, making him see the bigger picture. The guy just stood next to her, listening attentively for he has no idea what commotion is happening between them. They were happy, they share their experiences, their stories, their laughter. Everything is normal until this night that she seems so lost in her story. What happened? He was hurt, and she felt it. When it's time, he explained his side and the realized that she just drop their promise of being open. She was easily affected by the words of her good critic friend. She had forgotten to fight for what they have gone through - to stand still.
8:43pm, Mon May 27 2013
What's in your heart Joyce? I wish it is as hard as stone, I want to harden it so that I won't feel pain even sadness that it bears. This will be the last night and I wish to freeze the moment. I do not want tomorrow to come. I'm afraid to hug her as tight as I could for tears will surely fall. In my face, you'll see curves but deep within, looking straight into my eyes you'll see the loneliness it feels. I'm again starting to feel pity for myself. I'm back to being independent, I'm back to my life's old routine without her. I'm gonna miss her again, I'll soon be longing for her arms, kiss, caress, and even voice. :'( life. Yes, I always know this day will arrive. Just let me endure this, my heart is silently weeping. Hugs God, please hug me tight.
05:01pm, Sat Jun 1 2013
Worship Ministry Formation
'We are broken in able for us to be shared for others.' - Fr. Mon
Holy Eucharist: What part of our lives need to be fed? Look forward for something new. It is not just what the priest is saying, sometimes, it is seeing others, their situation and the reality.
Servants: revealed the extra ordinary substance for the Lord. It is our relationship with the Lord that makes the difference.
*nourishing others
*life-giving community
12:49pm, Sun Jun 2 2013
life realization: Sometimes not all we want, we have; and not all we have, we love
10:28, Tue Jun 4 2013
'you keep things to yourself. You're loud yet you don't show what's inside you. You're afraid it might bother others and that thing makes it difficult for you. You wanted to shut everything up - to stop thinking. You have your own different escapes. You're afraid to commit not merely because of uncertainties but because you-do-not-want-to-lose.' - that's me. I wonder why things seem so complicated or it's just me that complicates it? Life! I really hate this feeling. Ah Joyce please, whatever it is, just stop and surrender. :'( "can mind really empower the hear? If then, why hearts are being broken."
11:22, Tue Jun 11 2013
God please help me discern more. Help me to do things justly and according to Your will.
1:32pm, Fri Jun 21, 2013
so I made a poem:
"Impossibility" by yours truly :))
Have you tried counting the stars?
What about staring at the wind?
Things that beyond our reach,
Impossible, so are your feelings for me.
High up above the vast blue sky,
My eyes see the beauty it holds
but my bare habds cannot reach it.
Impossible, so are my feelings for you.
The ocean is deep yet silent.
Underneath it is hidden wonders,
hard to gather, unable to capture.
Impossible, so are our feelings for each other.
CFC ANNIV
Knowing Jesus is not an effort, knowing Him is a gift... Everyday Jesus reveals himself, but will we be there? - Fr. Tagle
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